“From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us.”(Acts chapter 17, verses 27-28)
Long lines don’t usually bother me. Traffic? Nah (unless I need to pee). Other people being late? Not really (something probably came up).
Waiting on life seasons to change? Yes. YES. YES! That bothers me.
The in between period of waiting for the promises of God to come through in His timing, sometimes freaks me out. I’m a planner. I can’t help it (I think). Lists, ideas and seeing things fall into place mentally, come naturally to me. One of the things I’m particularly swell at planning is my own life.
I have a myriad of assorted goals neatly tucked away in the recesses of my mind (and maybe a journal or two), with several methods of achieving them attached. If Plan A doesn’t work out, not to worry, I (the all-seeing one), have Plans B to Z as contingencies. No sweat. We’ll get through this one Fran. Think happy thoughts, and stay in control.
He surprises me
Small problem. The journey of following Jesus tends not to accommodate my giftedness in planning and control (go figure). He frequently throws my goals out altogether and replaces them with amazing dreams that I could (and would) never have come up with on my own. They far exceed my original goals in depth, meaning, impact and joy.
My Lord, Jesus, surprises me with these beautiful gems, and I, the dutiful planner (cue Martha reference – Luke chapter 10, verses 38-42), set about arranging their fulfilment.
But halt. He tells me, “No, Beloved…these dreams are for an appointed time. You need to wait, and trust Me to bring them to pass”. I don’t understand. Why not use one of the five plans I’ve created to bring the dream You gave me to reality? Why wait? I can do this Lord. Trust me!
I can trust Him
And like that, I wrestle with my Saviour, and He reminds me that He is my Lord and my God, and that He is good. My times and seasons are in His hands. As my God, He controls my life, not me. As my Lord, I submit to His plans and will for my life. Because He is good, I can trust the outcomes of those plans because I know His character.
Jesus sees the entire story of God clearly, and He knows my story and where I fit in the larger one. He knows me better than I know myself, and His heart towards me is kind and full of love and tenderness. The Father Himself loves me, and I honour Him and grow in love as I submit to the leadership of His Son. He (Jesus), reveals the heart of the Father to me in His leadership of my life, through the Holy Spirit who indwells my spirit and guides me into all truth.
My steps aren’t supposed to be ordered by me…they are ordered by God. He’s a much better planner any way.
Lord Jesus, please give us grace to trust you more and release the reins of control of our lives. You are God, we are not. We rest in the certainty of your goodness when our paths aren’t clear, and we lean on our Beloved, trusting Him to lead us up out of the wilderness.
Waiting for the fulfilment of God-given dreams and promises, teach us to lean, rest, and trust. Waiting is a type of wilderness that matures the love in our hearts and disciplines our anxious souls. Press in and lean. Today, resolve not to work, but to lean, wait and trust.
“Who is this coming up out of the wilderness, leaning on her Beloved?” (Song of Songs chapter 8, verse 5)
Francesca is a daughter, friend, avid reader, attorney-at-law, and porridge connoisseur. She enjoys Jesus and fulfilling His purposes for her life on Earth. Her previous articles can be viewed at: https://www.pressserviceinternational.org/francesca-tavares.html