The beauty of the ocean is that it doesn't judge you, it might literally kill you, but it doesn't judge you. You can be in the pits of despair or the heights of ecstasy and the ocean doesn't care, it doesn't even give it a thought. I like the ocean.
The closest I have ever come to drowning was when I learnt to surf at a beach called Muriwai, on Auckland's rugged West Coast. I had been attempting to surf for about an hour when I decided it was time to quit, I was tired.
After paddling in for what seemed like hours, I realised I was no closer to land. I could see my friend Zach, standing on the shore watching and thinking I was having a great time. I began to get scared, and could feel weakness creeping in.
There was a large swell, and being a beginner surfer, I did not realise the power it possessed. I was also stuck in a big rip. I was in trouble.
Now, I remembered the lessons I grew up with about how to get out of rips and I knew what to do, but in the swirl of the moment all of this went out of my head. I made some more futile attempts to reach shore, but I got no closer. I realised I was very scared because I heard a small voice tremble, "help". It was my little voice. In that moment I hated the ocean.
Scared
What do you do when you realise you are scared? Like the good Christian boy I am I decided to bargain with God. I didn't want to wave for the lifeguard—that would have made me look like I needed help. Also, there were no lifeguards, and I didn't want to look silly. So I said to God, "if you get me out of this I'll be a good boy"... or something.
At that moment a big wave came and I managed to catch it. Impossible! You cannot usually catch waves in big rips. But I managed to ride this huge wave all the way to shore. In fact, I enjoyed it so much I almost turned round and paddled out again. I turned around to the ocean, thinking, "you are not so bad". I like the ocean.
Old times tomorrow
I've just been for a surf: my first real surf since I lost an eye. It was... interesting. It took me a few waves to find my feet again, but it was not long before my I experienced the joy of riding the ocean.
It was just like old times, me and two old mates. 'Old times' are so good because you tend to think they can't happen again, and when they do they have this magic about them, sort of like something came back from the dead. The thing is 'old times' can happen at any time. 'Old times' can happen tomorrow!
Since the accident I have been very reliant on my glasses but I had to take them off and I don't have contacts. I wondered if I would be able to see well enough to surf. It turns out yes, I could. I could actually, in a way, see more. I noticed things like the shape of the hills and the individual surfing styles of my friends (which made it easier to see where to paddle to when I couldn't see their faces).
To make things better, the sun was setting. Now, I do not know of any possible situation not improved by an amazing sunset. This was an incredible sunset. Golden, lazy waves rolling casually in, as if they had forgotten where they were going. People drive from very far away to get to the sea, especially the West Coast sunset, for some reason we are all crazy about it. I am grateful to see the sea. I definitely should surf more!
Thank God for the sea.
Jared Diprose is a self employed Artisan and co-director of the Mosaic Workshop. He has a degree in Theology, and believes that words shape worlds. He is married to Sierra. You can see some of his work at www.facebook.com/jareddiprosecreative and you can check out The Mosaic Workshop at www.facebook.com/workshopmosaic
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