Last month a number of incidents in my life stressed me out, these were issues that affected almost every aspect of who I am and felt quite depressed. Eventually, with the Word and strength of the Lord, these troubles were tided.
Worries in life
It has been three months since I became employed by this business. There are still plenty of things which require some considerable adjustment.
As a marketer, my role is to know the products and promote them according to customers’ needs. During the past three months, I’ve become totally bewildered over hundreds of products available and their specific marketing.
Apart from the pressure from work, finding a new apartment has become a nightmare as the current landlord decided to terminate my one-year contract August 6th. I was only notified of this in mid-July! Moreover I had a business trip from July 27th-August 7th, so I needed to move into a new apartment before I left.
It’s difficult to find an appropriate apartment as the rent is getting higher and higher. To find and move into a satisfactory apartment within the time available seemed impossible. With limited time and budget, I was under great pressure as the departure of my business trip was approaching.
I felt vulnerable and very upset. What if I couldn’t find a place to live? How would I deal with all the stuff in my current apartments? Would I become homeless?
Belief in God
Somehow, there is a voice inside me telling me that God won’t let His child be homeless. Even though I was disappointed by several available apartments advertised online, I believed He had prepared a place for me to live.
As Matthew chapter 6, verse 33 says: “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. ”
Those are versus that I memorised a long time ago. However, it’s easier knowing them than seeing them fulfilled. Intellectually, and in my heart I know that I can rely on God for everything and my worries are pointless.
Nevertheless, I could not help worrying about the problems. When dwelling on my own troubles, I found it’s hard to concentrate on meditating on God’s words. To make things worse, my willingness of going to my church and the Bible study group became, let’s say less enthusiastic.
I presented my anxiety and uncertainty to the Lord, and felt a restoration and inner peace and carry on.
Seek first God’s kingdom
“Miracles happen when people show their faith.” I was told so during one Bible study session. My problems were solved miraculously when I put down my worries and focused on Jesus our Lord! I haven’t stopped praying and seeking that God strengthens my faith in trusting in Him instead of worrying about the problems all by myself.
Yes, I moved into a new apartment, which is in an ideal location and with a reasonable rent – this happened three days before my business trip. More importantly, the business trip has been inspiring and rewarding, which stimulates me to set up some clear and specific objectives for the new finical year.
I couldn’t thank God enough for His amazing grace! How gracious is the Lord who listens to my prayers and gives me more than I could imagine! My confidence in seeking first God’s kingdom has been enhanced! For all other things are granted when I believe and behave so. All it takes is faith! I pray that God’s spirit will be with me. For me it is a lesson in seeking His kingdom and righteousness!
Cheng Xingyi (known as Cindy) was born and brought up in central China. Cindy enjoys travelling and reading history books. Cindy is inspired by talking with local people when travelling abroad experiencing different parts of the world, as well as herself.
Cheng Xingyi's previous articles may be found at http://www.pressserviceinternational.org/cindy-cheng.html